End of my free will

Tomorrow will be the last day before i start my new sem. This monday I will be attach to a clinic in KL, doing God knows what, probably just observing... I hope
This three whole week break felt somewhat long in the beginning however relentlessly to be quiet short at the very end.  For sure, I had very much enjoyed staying away from the faculty, not thinking at all about patients. Given my mind a rest. For a while.
    Nevertheless, everything have it's end of the toll. Next up, got to get my phones ready, numbers, patients, research (argh!!!) brace myself for the new sem. The final year.

                                      4th Year.....
A lot of memories made. Clinics. Mistakes. Regrets. Stress
                                         Disagreement. Distress.
             Fun. Eating non stop. Friends. Relieved.

4th year 11/12

 Come to think about it, we had 3 group performances just for this year. Talk about hectic clinics.
We were also given a chance to go to Bangkok. Great trip. Good Food.

Conclusion

                                                             

                     

Foods to Indulge

  For this sem break for about 3 weeks, i have been cooking and baking a little. some were great..some were so-so. Nonetheless I still enjoy cooking whenever I am hungry. Well, that is the only time I would force myself to cook. Twice had i bake an apple pie for breaking fast, the first try was much better than the later. twice also had i made macaroni curry bakar, still couldn't get the macaroni stick together the way they should have. Then some other common stuff.

My sister came back from egypt. thinking she may have wanted to bake us anything...the ingredients were all ready brought from Egypt. however the baker is not that into the mood yet. She said,"the mood will come.... when somebody would pay a visit for raya", And so she did. she was enthusiast when her friends were to come, baking muffins and pavlova.

Pavlova. Nice one. Dreadful to make.

I wonder what she would cook if that certain somebody came for a visit :P

Moving after Raya, comimg back from kampung, we(me and my sister) went to TS and Lowyat. Since she never been there, i'm in charge of the routes...which I am quite crafty at the time.
We had somewhat an enjoying time which was quite short since we arrived ther in the afternoon. Stuff our tummies full with lunch before starting anything, it is somehow quite tiring really after that to walk. Very tiring.

lunch with bul go gi. Got me fulled in seconds

 We were chasing after time, and it was a troublesome chasing to go back at 4.00, walking towards the LRT station, changing stations...
in the end...at least I got to go somewhere that week.
the rest of the days, just sitting at home -_-

Suppressing

This past few past,
i tried to suppress any stress and worries,
not thinking too much, let everything flow as it is.

the days felt faster,
the nights felt shorter..
waking up with sore eyes..
it feels so cozy being on bed,
nevertheless, the bed should be my sworn enemy, hmm...

for now, the clinic runs swiftly.
Not thinking too much about patient..
like my Dr always says "tak payah fikir sangat pasal patient,
we had done our part, x yah pening2 dah"
another Dr would say "sape suruh dia x jaga gigi dia elok2"
ok, maybe not a very good quote -_-
but at least to give my heart at ease for the time
until the next session will start.

right now, feeding my addiction to b2st ^_^

Sick 2

My second wave of viral fever came back after 2 years. the symptoms and duration were just the same except that this one does not start with a 'ketumbit'. overall, it may be initiated by having too much stress, too much worries...wallahualam

this time around, i vomit a lot everytime i ate my medicine. then, i just couldn't stand to drink plain water or eat  anything. it all give me the thought of puking.
for the past 4 days, i could only eat a spoonful for every meal.
for the past 4 nights, i couldn't sleep properly, waking every hour, the dreams were very disturbing.
i slept with my mother for two nightsthinking it would be easier to go to sleep, it worsen. my head were burning all night making it harder to sleep.
after a couple of time went to the clinic, check my blood, taking many many pills....which i couldn't take any more...
my fever finally relieved when i finally can sleep soundly on my bed, on my own.

alhamdulillah, for He has grant me this gift again.


right now my condition, quite dizzy

Coming Back

Coming back to campus. Officially i'm announced as 4th year dental student. still alot more to learn, alot more requirement to fulfill. Within a few clinic I had these few days, haven’t been what I had expected(seriously when had it been?)

being in a new cubicle, a new dental chair, and partners, makes it all different. Feeling quiet depressed at the moment since my patient could not spend the whole time at the clinic as it was supposed to be. Nonetheless, I knw He had other better plans for me….

Looking back, none of my patient never seems to fill my criteria, but I guess it is as what I can bare of. Bracing myself of what to come. Got to be more resilient..tebal muka panggil patient datang in whatever the circumstances is.

How time flies

3rd year was the hardest year I had ever encounter(for now). The most damp year with tears and despair. Yet it is the fastest year. I could still remember the day I injected my friend with LA, having difficulty making her impression and gently scaling her teeth. How every simple thing seems to be a very nerve-racking situation for me.

Now I’m in my 4th year which I’m expected to know everything, still only get a hang of class I and scaling. Trying to be as gentle as possible to my patient(hehe)

Happy 8th Birthday!

Last tuesday was my little brother's birthday. He was anticipating it for about a month before it come into term.

so we went to buy his favourite chocolate cake and a pencil box present for him that afternoon. A kid enthusiasm is indescribable when it comes to their birthdays. No candle of course.

the next day, he came back from school with a present in his hand. somebody had given him a present. what's really astonishing that it came from a 15 year old boy at the school. Words had it that he really adores Fauzul. how nice is that! wish i had a secret admirer...

still, i don't blame that boy, i myself still adore him (even though he annoys me now and then).

i don't know when will this stop. i remember that whenever i had a new brother or sister, i always adore them until the next one came. but what will you do with the last one?

Xm

Yesterday was the day the result came out for our first clinical year. Before the day came, we had to wait for 3 days( which in reality is longer than that). The theory papers had finished 2 weeks before The next 2 weeks were for our clinical exams (3 session)

The clinical exams

Which I had done poorly,

GS: “owh, you’re going to fail, man” These words I would never forget, be it an act of psychology or just plainly scolding me. That what made me burst…..as I went into the quarantine room. I thought to myself “ I shouldn’t be like this” “stop it, stop it”, the lecturer were there,

thank god I was among of the earliest, the emotion dried away, and more importantly I managed to escape the mva cases (o_0). The short case was a big helped I guess for my score(hmm..)

GM: “ok, this patient has a renal problem, what more would you ask?” I started with “owh….ahh……” why did it have to be renal which I didn’t revise at all for this exams (tend to go for target subjects only) even though I would know it (supposedly) I went blank nevertheless tried to answer stutteringly.

a result made from wardrounds started about 2 month ago.

The day: Alhamdulillah, I manage to make it. I passed all 12 subjects. All praise be to Him.

For someone who had failed 5 subject before, I am very grateful.

All that I could think of was what my friend had said to me “ it was all up to our prayers if we were ever to make it”

to my friends, don't be sad, we will always be there to support you and pray for you. i'm ready to help you guys.