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What do I do in times like this?

The results still hasn’t come out yet.

Without any pressure, without any urge,

The books still dusting away in their racks.

I’m in a desperate effort to finish my only one novel

Still half way through it,

But still a long way to go.

The 14 inch screen’s reaching out to me,

It manipulated me to still clinging on.

After window to window,

From picture to picture.

Just an excuse to do my assignment,

Which never seem to find its end.

i'm still waiting though,

2 weeks to go

And they’ll be here.

Fear and anxious

I don’t know why? But this feeling keeps on coming.

Ever since holiday started, I always feel unease,

I know things will turn up this way,

Always in fear,

Knowing that it will burst and explode,

I couldn’t stand it any longer,

Tears would break out in my mind,

Somehow I manage to suppress it.

Feeling sorry for myself and others,

Why does the thought of resentment always,

Come knocking into my head.

Sadness comes whispering into my ears,

Never in my life I count the days when,

The most waited week to end so fast,

I’ve plan everything I wanted to do

When I’m alone…

Yes I’m selfish, very.

Thinking of only me,

But I’ve never fail to think,

Of their happiness,

And always be anxious.

Early Clinic

Whenever we had to start clinic,

head start twirling, my whole body is unease

All that I could think is to get away from all of this

That day may come to me with ease.

But the period would never be decided to fall.

Courage and endurance keeps drifting back and forth

Still seeking the passion to keep holding on.

Kerunsingan

Tika ini saat paling runsing

Rintangan dan dugaan datang

Bergilir-gilir tidak pernah lekang

mengharap jauh sinar mendatang

Tika ini saat paling runsing

Bila mana ketenangan hilang

Resah gelisah terus tertanam

Rumit sudah kesudahan

Tika ini saat paling runsing

Fikiranku kuat bertekad

Masa akan mengubah

Hanya sabar mendidik perasaan

pulau Kapas Class Educational Trip =)

i know this is quite late

but i really didn't have the mood to post it until now.

all i want to say is that is was really exciting, fun, mesmerizing, most importantly i would never forget this experience with you guys my friend. the first ever class trip held by ourselves to an island which most of us didn't really got a chance to go before.

*Clapping to ourselves!

Family Trip

Finally i got a chance to go on a trip with my family,

Which i had miss a lot recently throughout this 3 years being a student in USIM. My family would always went to vacations that would always be very fascinating and i would not got a chance to went with them, either i’ve got classes or exams.

Eventhough it was only for 1 day, it was worth it. We went to Sungai Klah Hot Springs Park, Sungkai, Perak. Felda made recreation park. Entry ticket is RM10 per person. There were a lot of people, nevertheless i would not miss a chance to went in the pool. There were a lot of pools of various temperature; 30˚C, 45˚C, 50˚C. There is a therepeutic area, egg boiling area, family spa.

Wasn’t really interesting, but at least i could spend my time with my family.

Fauzul wasn's really into photo taking=)

eating out

Last Monday, during the evening, walid, umi and the rest came to sent my white coat I left back home.

They just came back from Sg Congkak.

Then we went to dine in an Arabic food restaurant, Rawsha, in jln Ampang.

there will always serve with sour cream..

a very large portion of rice

with a very tender beef served~

very nice though.

A new chapter

Entering year 3 is very thrilling but at the same time very scary. Thinking that i'm going to face a patient very very soon, is a very heart-throbbing situation. What will I do? Am I capable of doing it?

Last week we did a competency test, and I almost entirely did the wrong things in my work and diagnosis. Thankfully we will have loads of other test throughout this month before we had our hands on a real patient. Hopefully it goes well.

Then we had a seminar held at the faculty, and that was a good break for us from our emotional stress and worse thoughts of what to come.

After this 2 week, there would be a lot of work being done throughout this year. No more lying here and there talking and daydreaming. With my budget running out on books, I might as well read them off as much as it worth. No more letting them dusting away on the shelves like I used to during the past years.

Be prepared for anything to come!

New goal for this year: limit my shopping expenses~

during clinical attachment

Hari-hariku kelihatan putih sahaja

menjelang minggu peperiksaan

ada saja yang keluar dari benak fikiran ku.

bangun saja dari tidur,

kertas putih ku capai..

meneliti sehabis mungkin apa yang terpapar..

namun dapatkah aku menangkap apa yang tersurat

pada warna putih itu?

lihat saja ke luar tingkap

sebuah bangunan putih tersergam tinggi

bagai ditenggalami bersama langit putih di sekelilingnya

dapatkah aku membezakannya?

masih banyak lagi helaian kertas putih perlu ku kapai

terhampar menanti....

Kuatkan diriku

agar ku tegar menghadapi ujian putih ini.

planning is easy

planning is easy,

it is the joy we predict for our future,

the happiness which is for told upon us,

the rush of the unknown,

the tension of the unexpected.

but, does it still count

if it is all too late to realize

the flow have all drifted away

as the sun will not wait to rise

and the moon would still shine

leaving man clutching for their lives

still uncertain..