Saturday, August 22, 2009

tournament~

Since I’m searching for many of my assignment, might as well fill in more entry.

Yesterday, KKP had held a program in commemoration to the national day and 1st Ramadhan.
A good effort by the committee to held such an event which had gathered all the students of Pandan together. At least we could get to know the new faces and not to mention the old ones 
the short video show during the opening of the program was interesting (ours were very nice and simple, even thought my face didn’t come out( -_-)

Our unit got to be in the ‘quiz kemerdekaan’ and I went in with no knowledge of anything since what I only did in the question entry form was to fill in the slogan. As expected, we lost. But at least 1 unit from the dental did manage to win 2nd place miraculously. 


don't have a clue

We had also lost in the nasyeed competition(too nervous, i guess). Despite all of that, we had practiced hard and enjoyed the whole process on putting it all together. A nice day which ends happily!

along with our community service t-shirt -_-



Friday, August 21, 2009

1st Ramadhan

Today is the 1st Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah. For this year’s Ramadhan, I hope it would be more meaningful and full of blessing. I hope it would be much much more better than before. This morning we all got up for sahur, even though we only ate bread/crackers with vico.

Last year, with my previous housemates, not all did manage to get up. For me it is mandatory. During tamhidi, it was much merrier. Even there were only six people in the house. We were very close. Everyone would get up and eat together in a circle. Najdah would sometimes cook for us the dishes and eaten with the rice. The same thing would go on during iftar too.




the front lawn of my house


However, I miss breaking fast at home more. In contrast to the others, it was made simpler. Here, at the hostel I might have a polystyrene full of rice all to myself. But at home, we would at least have to 2 ‘kuih’ which we had made ourselves and eat together (The ‘kuih’ might be sandwiches, cucur and etc.) It might be a very light ‘cuisine’, but we had really gotten used to it.

In any other words, I would really prefer to break fast at home than any other places.

Since today we had a program in our faculty, and I am very much involved in it~ I had to sacrifice my desire for the time being.
Koromuo, have a nice day, Selamat berpuasa to myself and all, may His blessing and rahmat be bestowed upon us all.

Friday, August 7, 2009

New history

The mid sem break is almost over now. Almost a week staying at home, it was quite a relieve to be away from all the hectic work in campus.

Now, in 2 days time I we’ll be going back to campus. Don’t know want will awaits me there..

For almost 2 months being a 2nd year students, A lot had happen. With new subjects to be learned along with dozens of programs in the weekends, it had been a handful.

1st we move in to a new home in the 16th floor. Only dental students stay in that floor. We got even more closer than we had ever been. The B16-03 was the loudest , often we heard their voice from our house and there always seems to be a function going on there. The most frequent unit to be visited among the 3 units. Whereas for me, I’m happy to be in my home~

Then, the juniors came along. They were enthusiastic, well, at least the boys were. We had held the orientation week for them and hope they like it.

Moving on, there was the family day. Located at sg Lepoh. Yes, a river, a river which I am dreaded to go near to. Luckily there was no activities done in the river and the weather was quite fine that day which is not wet. The activities were interesting and at least we got to know the juniors even better, even thought I had repeatedly call out their names incorrectly (-_-)

2 weeks afterwards we had our mid exams. I think the worse would be Optech’s paper. The questions were so simple that we didn’t even bother to read about it in the lecture notes, or to be more precisely, I had lose the notes and didn’t even remember if it really had existed. Maybe we had mistaken it for microb’s notes…huh (-_-)

Well, I guess we all just have to brace ourselves for the outcomes of our mid results..

Korom…that’s all from me, till next time.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Reviving..

It has been a week now I’m at home, having my break. After finishing the two novel I had borrowed from my friend, I could see now what damaged it had made on me. Thinking back those countless, sleepless nights I went through, even for only 3 days, it felt I have wasted the whole break on it. Yet I thirst for more of it. The whole content of the book has entirely oppose on what I believes. It had lifted me from reality into a fantasy, a fantasy that will not happen, as it is only a fairy tale made by those people in one of their reason to manipulate and mislead us muslims to the right path. I should have not let myself into those traps, however I had frequently plunged myself into it with my own will. How weak I have become. I’m ashamed of myself. Often I had revived from it, but I would then constantly fall back into those dark holes that had always been waiting for me or anyone to enter. How I had dwelled in it. But I will not give up the fight, as I knew my purpose, the reason I’m still breathing still this moment, is for Islam, my Deen needs me…it will not be easy…..as jihad in oneself is the most greatest iman, and i will fight and conquer for that iman as best as i could.

Ending for the new beginning


I couldn't believe it that the end of the 1st semester had come. When I first entered the faculty, I would never have thought I would survived it. I could still remember when I entered the meeting room, there were a few familiar faces, but I hardly knew them that much. A month had past then, and I had befriend with each one of them, discovering and knowing each character. Most of them are quite the same, easy going, cheerful, and very, very loud.

There are some, that are very quiet, or hardly. One however that I’m very sure of had really changed me. Even sometimes others would think of  her being too extreme, I think otherwise. She was more better than any of us. She always be the first to fulfill the obligation towards Him. I always felt inferior towards her. I never have the strength like her, always loyal to Him, always repenting, the name of Him never leave her mouth. I could always hear her citing it, anywhere. I envy her. I should be like her, it’s the best thing I should be doing, as He would surely love it. Zikrullah that should always be in my side like she had made done on herself. Zikr is what He likes best. That’s the greatest thing that had happen to me in this semester, i've meet a good friend. She had often remind me of my obligation even it is not always, to be punctual, as that is my responsibility, I know, I must do it and preserved it.
And there was my housemates, they were very welcoming. I've never befriend with any of the medic students so close like now apart from Najdah and her close friends. Despite our quiet home so quiet as we're busy with our own errandsin our own room, they will always visit my room, peeping and chatting. Futhermore, we would gather at the living room when we stress out studying. Letting the tv on, let it out loud, and we let ourself outloud. it was very fun living with them. Frequently they would tease me with a grin in their faces, i don't bother, i enjoyed that. I wish this bond that is just started to form would last forever. Helping me to begin this new life, this new mission togehter. I hope the new beginning of 2nd semester would be more promising than the end of this 1st.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

StruGGle!!!

Why do i feel such things....
After receiving my mid term result, i felt very depressed, dissapointed of myself...
thinking whether i would suvive or not in this faculty...

NO, NO, NO, I MUST BE STRONG...
THIS IS ALL IN MY MIND...
i can do this...
Allah had all written everything for me and it is all up to me to now...
i must push forward..
as what my father always said,
" you can do better than that"

I must Struggle!!!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

pesan ustaz daniel

Tazkirah Ust Daniel Sallehi: AGM SESIAPA YANG PADA WAKTU LETIHNYA TETAP MELAKSANAKAN TUGAS-TUGAS INI, NESCAYA DIA AKAN TETAP BERADA DALAM JALAN INI. JIKA SEBALIKNYA, MAKA KITA AKAN FUTUR…

- Kita ada tugas yang lebih agung, untuk mengembalikan islam di atas muka bumi ini. Maka, tugas-tugas lain seperti belajar ia akan menjadi lebih kecil. Kesannya, proses pembelajaran akan menjadi mudah.
- Memikirkan masalah ummah adalah lebih besar. Belajar hanyalah wasilah semata-mata. Insya allah, proses pembelajaran akan jadi mudah.
- Tidak kira di mana kita berada, DnT adalah yang paling penting.
- Potensi yang allah berikan adalah untuk digemlengkan kepada membawa islam. Ramai orang yang besar-besar apabila diberikan satu-satu ujian, maka dia akan gugur. Berbanding dengan orang yang kecil, biasanya dia akan lebih tabah.
- ILIK adalah satu wadah utk menghubungkan antara ahli-ahlinya dalam rangka memberikan wa’ islami ( kesedaran islam )
- Antara sebab berlakunya futur :
i. Melakukan hal-hal yang mubah ( harus ) .
• sikap dan pola hidup yang sibuk hanya sekadar utk makan, minum, main, tidur dsb. Hal ini akan menjadikan kita lebih selesa dan ‘malu’ untuk memikirkan perkara-perkara yang lebih besar.
• Kita letih memikirkan benda ini sahaja. Kelihatannya seperti telah banyak beramal, tetapi hakikatnya tidak ada apa-apa pun yang dibuat.
• “jauhilah oleh kamu rasa kenyang makan dan minum kerana hal itu akan menyebabkan malas solat. Maka celakalah apabila hal-hal agama dipengaruhi oleh syahwat”.
• “sesiapa yg kenyang akan dipenuhi perkara seperti :
1. Hilang rasa nikmat dalam bermunajat.
2. Tidak mampu memetik hikmah
3. Hilang rasa kasih terhadap orang lain.
4. Mula malas utk beribadah. Orang mukmin hatinya akan terikat dan dilihat di masjid manakala orang yang ingin kenyang, akan dilihat di kantin dan tandas. Kita ada potensi yang lebih daripada orang lain. Fikrah islamiyah yang telah kita dapat adalah lebih mahal daripada segala-galanya, dan memandu kehidupan kita. Persoalan yg sepatutnya kita fikirkan : hari ini ialah siapa sasaran kita. Bayangkan kalau kita tidak cuba menyebarkan wa’ islami ( kesedaran islam ) kepada kawan-kawan kita, maka kemungkinan apabila dia besar nanti dan berjaya memegang jawatan-jawatan yg besar dan mentadbir tanpa pedoman islam. Betapa besar peluang yang telah kita lepaskan….
ii. Memisahkan diri dari Jemaah. Beruzlah.
• Medan perjuangan dalam DnT adalah sangat panjang dan penuh dengan mehnah dan ujian. Jika kita tetap terus bersendirian, maka kita tidak akan mampu bertahan.
• “setiap perbuatan itu adakalanya bersemangat dan adakalanya lemah. Maka siapa yang akan membantu kita apabila kita lemah?” Maka sebab itu baginda menggalakkan kita berjamaah, kerana kita akan ada orang yang akan menegur kita…
• “sesunggunya syaitan akan mendekati orang yang bersendirian dan menjauhi orang-orang yang berjamaah.”
• Para sahabat apabila bertemu akan bertanya tentang iman, amal, ilmu, ibadah dan apabila ingin berpisah, akan ada nasihat-nasihat yang diberikan.
• “org yang bergaul dengan manusia dan sabar dengan gurauan mereka, lebih besar daripada manusia lain yang tidak bergaul dan tidak sabar dengan gurauan mereka”. Setiap manusia ada kesilapan yang akan dilakukan. Bergaullah…..
iii. Kurang mengingati masalah kematian dan alam akhirat,
• Kurang mengingati kematian dan alam akhirat dapat menurunkan semangat dan memutuskan amalan dengan akhirat.
• Pada usia muda, ingatan terhadap kematian sangat jauh bahkan tidak mustahil jika dalam seminggu tidak pernah ingat mati.
• Setiap masa kita sentiasa berada dihujung tanduk, bila-bila boleh mati. Risiko sentiasa ada.
• “wahai manusia, malulah kepada Allah. Sesiapa yang rasa malu, maka ingatlah kematian apabila tiba masa malam.”
• Para ulama’ dahulu melakukan banyak alternatif untuk mengingati mati. Ada dikalangan mereka yg mengorek kubur dan duduk di dalam itu dan cuba menghayatinya.
iv. Apabila abai dalam melaksanakan tugas2 harian.
• Lambat solat, tak solat sunat. Meninggalkan solat dhuha, istighfar, solat di masjid, berjamaah, al-ma’thurat, baca al-quran, tidur banyak.
• Inilah yang akan menyuburkan rasa malas akibat daripada meninggalkan rutin harian. Tidak merasa lazat apabila berdoa.
• Jika ini berlaku, jangan haraplah untuk kita memikul tugas yang lebih berat. Amalan-amalan rutin kita, jangan ditinggalkan.
• Kalau tak sempat, cuba bangun awal dan selesaikan dahulu. Jika dibiarkan, maka sangat bahaya kerana kita adalah seorang DAIE….
• Sedikit amalan yang berterusan walaupun sedikit akan memberikan kesan. Kesannya tetap ada, jika tak dapat di dunia, akan dapat di akhirat.
• Jangan biarkan kekuatan muda yg kita ada dipergunakan oleh sistem jahiliyah.
• Oleh itu, gunakanlah sebaiknya. Jangan biarkan kebaikan kita dipersia-siakan.

Keciciran kawan2 kita adalah tanggungjawab kita bersama..

terima kasih ustaz, walaupun ana x dapat menghadirkan diri pada hari itu,
pesanan ini amat berbekas di hatiku ini yg sudah lama lalai dgn arus jahiliyyah kini..
akan ku terus berjuang mejadi seakan pokok jati yg kuat dan teguh,
akarnya menjunam jauh menerkam tanah seakan berdiri pada prinsip aqidah yang tidak akan goyah dek angin jahiliyyah yang lalu..
 
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